To the jackass I work with:
Yo, it’s me. You know, that girl you assaulted a few months ago?
Come on! You can’t have forgotten already.
Oh wait! I forgot. You were drunk.
Oh wait! I forgot. You were “in a bad place”
Oh wait! I forgot. You don’t remember.
No matter how many times you change your story when you straight-up lie to me about that fateful night I will never, ever forget what you did to me.
And I will never forgive you.
Because you are a predator. You are a manipulative, dishonest, violent douchebag that only knows how to deceive and hurt.
You are not a good person. It is so painful to work with you because I see my colleagues/my friends/people I care about interact with you and they are so kind to you.
They don’t know you like I do.
Even the ones who know what you did to me smile at you and happily interact with you. Sometimes it hurts to see this. Sometimes it is just confusing.
Occasionally I will see you or hear you at work interacting with others and I think maybe I should just ‘get over it’ and be pleasant with him at work.
And then reality reminds me that you fucking sexually assaulted me.
You put your hands on my body when I told you not to. You kept going when I told you to stop. You ignored all of my protests so that you could get what you wanted.
But now you’ve conveniently forgotten. I wish I could.
What you did to me was not the worst thing that has happened to me. But it is so similar to those even more terrible things that every time I see your goddamned face I only remember terror and pain.
You’ve noticed that I don’t like to be scheduled to work with you and that I go out of my way to not work with you. Why would that matter if you never did anything wrong? Why would I do that if you never did anything wrong?
Guess what, jackass? You did something incredibly wrong.
So when you tell me “I know you don’t like working with me. I always try my best to stay out of your way. I know you don’t like me. I don’t really know why but it’s whatever” all I hear is “blah blah blah I’m a predator blah blah let me try and manipulate you.”
So fuck you. Goodness gracious good gully gosh, fuck you.
And that’s really all I have to say.